Yetismith
February 11
7th February 2024
February 7th was another of those contrails days which I intended to post.
But then Patches died.
Or I should say we had her put to sleep.
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It's not that I think it was the wrong decision. It just bends my mind a bit.
Grant suggested yesterday that we should keep ourselves busy in order to not dwell on our loss.
So we had a morning of "pre-cleaning day tidying", but when I sat down to write I found that I could not.
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It's good to be distracted in order to get through daily events, but there comes a time when you have to face the grief and let it all flow.
It certainly flowed yesterday afternoon.
As I once read somewhere:
"In each loss are all previous losses."
Our most recent losses were so recent. Having another, so unexpectedly, re-opened that wound.
It's hard, but one must allow the feelings. To suppress grief is to store it up where it can eat at you in ways you may not comprehend.
It's what I did when my aunt died.
For us, life goes on.
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February is traditionally one of our coldest months, but traditions are a thing of the past.
However, we are promised plunging temperatures and perhaps more snow next week.
It's hard keeping pace with all the ups and downs.
Scooter pops her head up periodically to reassure us that she is well but she seems very wary and vanishes if she notices us at the window.
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Our recent snow quickly melted back from roads and pathways but our driveway held on to several bits of ice which I kept forgetting about.
Marching out with nuts for the birds, I suddenly found myself in precarious situations which luckily did not get the better of me.
It's gone now.
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Our furry friends were very pleased by the return of the Sun.
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They relish a sunny spot.
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Or a favourite radiator.
"Don't turn it off!"
Today the Sun has been in and out and the darlings have been moving ahead of the vacuum cleaner.
Cleaning day is always a little fraught. Not the best day to return to writing.
But it's a start.
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Grant and I very much appreciate everyone's kind thoughts.
Your words really do help.
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